Almost like choking,

you choke me with all of your words and your stories and your emotions,

I cant do it anymore.

Im not ready for this level of commitment anymore, I thought I was but obviously I need to take a step back.

I’m 19.

Just 19.

How am I supposed to know that you’re the one i’ll marry?

I can’t.

I won’t.

It’s time for me to spend some time alone. Time apart.

My brain needs a break, hell, I need a break.

I’m exhausted from all of this, but it’s scary.

I’m scared,

of what your friends will say,

of what your family will think,

I can’t think this way.

It’s not fair to me.

I’m tired of always sacrificing my own happiness,

I’m tired of choking on your words and feeling too scared to say anything about it.

It’s time to take a step back,

realize who I am again.


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